Reflections on being a patient

I don’t like being weak or limited, 

To have my life interrupted by pain and uncertainty. 

At first, I was confident it would improve, 

But when it returned again and again, worse each time, 

I began to wonder, and to worry. 

I followed the advice of my doctors

I tried every pain med and tracked the fluids consumed, 

Liters and liters of fluids

To wash away the pain. 

But we were only left wondering and worrying

When to seek more expert care than is available here. 

I was at peace with the decision to go, but then I was left waiting

Waiting. Waiting for a flight. 

Waiting for an appointment. Waiting for results. 

Waiting and wondering and trying to wash away the pain. 

 

God provided places to stay and friends, dear friends like family, 

To care for me and lavish love upon me. 

God provided a wonderful doctor who understood my situation 

And fit me into his busy schedule

God provided a skilled team of medical professionals 

To walk me through my procedure and hospital stay. 

God provided peace in my heart as I entered the OR for the first time

As a patient

Everything familiar yet viewed from a different perspective.

God provided a restorative environment to recover and recuperate

Surrounded by his creation and beauty.

God provided healing in so many ways

Freedom from physical pain

A balm and solace for the soul.

God provided smooth travels home again to Kudjip

In time to celebrate Christmas with my missionary family

Oh, the joy of the thunderous welcome 

When I arrived just in time for the kids’ Christmas performance.

God continues to provide strength for each day

And bright hope for tomorrow. 

Praise be to our Lord, Creator, Designer, Provider, Healer, and Savior. 

Amen.